Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Getting the FET Ball Rolling

I finally have the date set for my FET. I'll start the lupron right after we get back from Iceland on July 10th and then on August 8th is when I get to meet my blasts.

It's such a mixed bag of emotions right now. I really, really want this to be over, but at the same time I know this is my last chance, my final grasp at the straws, the grand finale...The fat lady will be singing and hopefully, it'll be a happy tune. I keep telling myself to be positive, but it's so hard every, single time I hear another pregnancy announcement, see a freakin' HPT commercial, or even just walk by a pregnant woman.

I've been trying to keep myself sane and not think about this too much. I'm trying not to get my hopes up. I know if I do, I may not be able to recover without some serious damage. Doc has been wonderful and supportive, but I'm just a really bad communicator and I keep things to myself most of the time. Over the years, he's learned to be patient and sooner or later, I usually tell him what's on my mind and what's bothering me, but it could be after a couple hours or it could be months down the road. I'm sure I could do with a therapy session or two, but I've done that and it hasn't helped me at all.

Anyway, enough of the depressing ramble...I've got a vacay to prep for and then a successful FET!

5 comments:

tasivfer said...

Oh I know that 'last chance' stress oh so well. There's no magic to help you deal with it, but Iseland sounds like a good strategy to me!

sienna said...

soo excited for you guys to go to iceland and even more excited for this FET. thinking of you often and i'm your biggest cheerleader :o) xoxo.

TurtleMama said...

Sooz - don't worry. But I know what you mean. I think you are doing the right thing by taking a wonderful vacation before your transfer. Your body will be relaxed and receptive to your embryoes. I start my first cycle next month. I will be thinking of you gallivanting all over Iceland, while I am stuck inside a hotel in Lone Tree:)

zygotta said...

Good luck - I am wishing with all my heart this is your lucky time!

lowfatlady said...

I hope you have a great vacation and an awesome fet!