Random

Not much to write about, but wanted to let you know that I'm alive and kicking. Some of the things that are going on in my life:

1. I got checked out by my OB and all has healed well and I've got the green light to try for some sexy time. This has Doc very happy, me not so much. Sex drive is on super low and I feel bad for Doc because it's been a very long time. There wasn't much going on the last trimester because of the bloating and general malaise and prior to that, I was restricted because of my placenta previa, so poor Doc has been on a dry spell for awhile.

2. Jason is growing like a weed. He's already at 11 lbs and has been putting on weight like there's no tomorrow. He's been smiling and cooing and gurgling. It's just amazing at how much he develops everyday!

3. Breastfeeding is about the same, but I think I've figured out what's causing all the fussiness. Jason seems to want to suck and not eat and he gets pissed when he starts sucking and discovers a mouthful of milk. I've started to give him a pacifier after his feeding and he seems really content to suck on that for about 5-10 mins. I guess it's sort of like an after dinner mint? Poor guy...it took me forever to figure this out.

4. Carpal tunnel sucks. My wrists are killing me and it's getting worse as Jason gets heavier. I'm wearing wrists splints at night but it's too difficult to hold J and wear them during the day.

5. Is this bad? I'm already thinking about baby #2 since we have 2 frozen blasts back in Colorado. I know it's way early to be thinking this way, but I really want a sibling for Jason and can't help, but hope that one of those blasts will give us another little baby.

6. Pumping...I have to start thinking about pumping and freezing since I'll be going back to work in October and everyone has told me that their milk starts to dwindle when they go back to work. I actually thought about renting the hospital grade Medela Symphony, but after talking to the lactation consultant, I settled on the Medela Pump In Style.

If you got through my boring rambling, I'll leave you with a couple of Jason pics!

Face of contentment right after a big meal!

Sleepy!

6 weeks...well, almost.

J is almost 6 weeks old! It's really hard to believe that he's been in our lives for over a month. On one hand it feels like eternity, but on the other, 6 weeks has gone by super fast. It's been a whirlwind of poop, pee, crying, and feeding.

He's actually been a pretty good little guy with the exception of these past few days. I'm not sure if it's the six week growth spurt (supposedly the most difficult) or if it's just that he's finally becoming a little being and developing his personality, but he's been much fussier than normal.

For example, he's been a perfect little feeder from the start, but these past few days he's been incredibly fussy at my breast, particularly the right one...He'll start fine and then a few minutes into his meal, he'll start fussing, pulling, and grunting, but he won't let go of the nipple. Oh, and his little arms start flailing all over the place. Sometimes, I can calm him down enough so that he finishes his meal, but most of the time, he'll get so agitated that I have to switch over to the other breast. I know it's doesn't have anything to do with a fast let-down. It's actually been so frustrating that I've made an appt with the hospital's lactation nurse to see what the fuss is all about. Hopefully, we'll get some answers.

The other "change" in personality is a bit more concerning. He doesn't like car rides anymore. Before, he'd fall asleep immediately in the car and it was so nice because I'd actually be able to go out and meet people. Pop him in the car, he'd fall asleep, and then he'd stay asleep when I took him out and plopped him in his stroller. Now, he's so agitated in the car that he doesn't fall asleep and then he's crying when I take him out which results in him crying in the stroller and let me tell you, it's no fun strolling the mall with a crying baby.

I've "discovered" a few work arounds, though. One, white noise. I turn that sucker on LOUD in the car and it calms him down a bit and every once in awhile, it'll actually get him to go to sleep.

Two, the exercise ball...It's been a life saver. I bounce gently on that thing with him in my arms and within ten mins he's asleep. That combined with the white noise on the stereo and his swaddle and we're good to go for the night.

Any recommendations from other moms on how to soothe a baby or maybe some insight into why he's so fussy at my breast?

Week 3

Time flies! It's already been three weeks since Jason officially entered our lives. Even with the sleep deprivation and carpal tunnel, these three weeks have been amazing. I never imagined that being a mother would be like this...completely, utterly, all consuming love.

Sometimes, when I'm alone with him at home, I think back to all that we went through to have him in our lives and I'm speechless. Tears start welling up in my eyes and I feel so incredibly grateful and happy; I'm turned into a blubbering fool and all I can do is hope that everyone that is struggling to conceive gets to feel what I feel. It's a blessing that I can't even begin to describe.

With that being said, I have learned a few things during these three weeks and I'll pass on my experiences:

1. Swaddle...Jason cannot sleep without being swaddled and we've tried all different types of swaddles. The Kid*dopotmus sack, regular swaddle blankets, Swaddle*Me with the velcro -- J was able to break out of all of them within seconds. So, we tried the Miracle Blanket and voila, it worked! He was snug as a bug in a rug and slept a full three hours!
2. Carpel tunnel. It sucks. I have it in both wrists from picking him up and holding him in awkward positions. It doesn't help that all my computer use had already laid the ground work for CT. Now, I have to wear braces which really sucks when you're trying to pick up or hold the baby. Word of advice: try to use your whole arm and not your hand/wrist to support the baby when you're holding him.
3. Leaky diapers. We had such a leaky diaper fiasco for the first two weeks. Basically, his diaper was leaking every single time he peed or pooped. We couldn't figure out what was wrong. We went out and bought several different newborn diaper brands, and even put him a size 1 (very large for his tiny body), but nothing seemed to work. Finally, we figured out that the freakin' vaseline we were told to put on his diaper to keep his circumcised peepee from sticking to the diaper was creating a barrier and keeping the diaper from absorbing. Since his little wiener has now healed and we don't need to grease his nappy, there's been no more leaks.
4. Clogged ducts. I've already gotten them in my right boob. For some reason, J doesn't seem to dig my right boob very much and as a result, it doesn't get drained properly which resulted in a very painful, very engorged right breast. So, for the past few days, I've been using a warm compress right before I feed J on my right boob. It seems to get the milk flowing and almost "forces" him to drink.

Lastly, I just want to say how happy I am for both Newbie and TurtleMama!! 

Pictures!

Finally! I think we may have gotten to a point where Jason is actually sleeping 3-4 hours between night feedings. With 30 mins for feeding, 15 mins for burping and changing, and then another 15 mins to get him back to sleep, our 2-hour feedings were leaving me with just 1 hour to sleep before having to get up for another cycle.

Overall, he's a great little baby and not too fussy. He loves to eat and makes the cutest little noises at night...grunting, gurgling, snorting and farting. I couldn't have asked for a better baby. This little guy has stolen our hearts. We can't even imagine what life was like without him.

Me, on the other hand, well, I'm definitely much more emotional. I cry at everything. I've never cried so much in my life. Whether it's something sad or something happy, I'll burst into tears at a moments notice and it's driving me crazy! It's like I have a split personality...Half my brain (the rationale half) is telling me to stop crying, and the other half is so emotional that I can't stop myself from crying. I'm hoping that this emotional roller coaster will calm down once I get some more sleep and once the hormones start evening out. It's been difficult because it's hard to explain to my mom and Doc why I'm crying when really, there's no particular reason and once I start, it takes me awhile for me to stop and next thing you know, I'm crying, Jason's crying and Doc just looks confused and helpless.

Even with all the hormones, emotions, and sleep deprivation, I wouldn't trade this for anything. This little guy is my pride and joy. I'll leave you with some pics that my brother-in-law took for us at 10 days.

                                                                                             

Birth Story - Part 2

Before I start the second part of Jason's (yep, little J) birth story, I have to put in two cents about my first Mother's Day. I really didn't know what to expect. I had dreamed about this for so long, becoming a mother and not just watching from the sidelines wondering when (or even if) it would be my turn. I feel so incredibly grateful, fortunate, happy and content. Even as I write this, I'm tearing up with emotion. I've been so blessed to have this little crying, pooping, sleeping miracle enter my life...the best Mother's Day gift ever.

Ah, so, now, where was I...Oh, yeah, the contractions! At 4 am, the doctor came in to check my progress and announced that I was 4 cm dilated. Hooray -- progress! At that point, my contractions were incredibly painful and coming 1-2 minutes apart, so I gave in and decided to take the epidural. They moved me from the "laboring" room to the "delivery" room and called the anesthesiologist, who luckily was able to come fairly quickly.

The epidural was a godsend, but unfortunately, I wasn't progressing and it took me another 12 hours to dilate to 10 cm.  During the wait, I developed a fever of 101.4 (I swear it was because I had had no food or water for over 24 hours) and so they started me on antibiotics. So, at this point I had the epidural, penicillin (since I was Group B Strep positive), antibiotics and the saline IV being pumped into my body. 

In the meantime, I was also dealing with the most incompetent nurse ever, who ended up burning me with hot compress. When she had changed the penicillin bag, she forgot(?) to dilute the medication and when it went in, it felt like my entire hand and arm was on fire. So, in her pathetic attempt to alleviate the pain, she put a hot compress on my hand which left a big red burn. One of the other nurses noticed the burn and thought it was an allergic reaction to the IV and they spent 10 minutes debating whether or not to move the IV to my other hand. I nearly flipped my lid and told them that they could NOT move the IV. At some point during the argument, they agreed that it probably was not in my best interest to move the IV.

So, here I am at 4pm and they decide that I'm ready to push although I'm not fully 10 cm AND the baby is still at +1 (hasn't completely dropped). After one hour of pushing, the delivery team tells me that if I don't start making more progress, they may have to resort to a c-section. Not something you want to tell a woman after 29 hours of labor...If I wasn't so deliriously tired, I think I would've said some not so choice words. However, at this point, some very wise individual (can't remember who) decided that I needed to lower my epidural and they halved it. Once that happened, I could actually feel exactly where to push (I know this may sound odd, but it's sort of like a poop that's stuck), so after another 2 hours of pushing, our baby boy, Jason was brought into this world with a very loud cry!

Battle wounds included: one small hemorrhoid, one small tear, and a burn from a hot compress. Overall, the battle was well worth it and I can honestly say that I'd do it all over again! 

Birth Story - Part 1

Where do I even start?! I guess I'll start from the very beginning which was the morning of Wednesday, May 3rd...

I had a routine appointment scheduled with my OB to check on my status since I was one week past my due date. When I went in, she did the requisite check for the heartbeat and fundal measurement, and then she went on to tell me that she had scheduled an induction for me on Friday, May 5th if I did not go into labor in the next couple of days. I had actually thought the induction would be scheduled for the following week, closer to week 42, but my OB felt that it would be better to induce before the weekend (sounds good to me).

So, based on her rec, I agreed to the appointment and was mentally preparing for a weekend delivery, UNTIL she checked my cervix and saw blood...more than what she believed should be seen if I had bloody show (which is what I thought it was). My OB recommended that I go to the hospital L&D and have them monitor and get a second opinion. Her thought was that I'd be sent in home before lunch, which was what I was anticipating.

With my OB referral and debating what I should have for lunch, I waddled to the hospital L&D unit and was hooked up for a non-stress test which showed that the baby was doing fine and I was having zero contractions. Visions of burritos and chips/salsa were on mind (yum...lunch), until the doctor was finished with his check and he told that he, too, was concerned with the blood. There was a possibility it could be a placental abruption and that since I was going to be induced on Friday anyway, it would be better if we just did the induction now.

Needless to say, I was a bit surprised. I immediately called Doc and told him that I was being admitted and that he should cancel his patients for the PM and bring his butt down to the hospital. After that, I called my mom and sister and asked them both to come to the hospital.

Next thing I know, I'm being hooked up to an IV and I'm getting my first dose of pitocin. Since they were concerned that I may have to do a c-section, they didn't allow me to eat or drink anything. Ice chips were my consolation prize and let me tell you, ice chips are a pretty sh***y consolation prize when all you've had to eat all day is a bowl of cereal.

They started me on 2 milliunits of pitocin, which didn't do much. I began to feel some contractions, but nothing to severe and then they upped it to 4 and that's when things started moving. Although reaction to dosages do differ from person to person, I guess I'm one of the lucky few who really react to the meds and at 4 milliunits my contractions were coming pretty strong and pretty close together.

This was around 6pm in the evening (my sister and mother had come by this time) and I was feeling pretty crappy. After the doctor checked me, she said that most likely I wouldn't deliver tonight because I was still not 100% effaced nor was I dilated. So, I told my sister and mother to go home and that we'd call them when there was more action.

Basically, things stayed the same for the remainder of the night with the doctors adjusting the pitocin between 3 and 4 and waiting for my body to dilate. I knew there was some progress being made because the contractions were more and more painful.

Part 2 to come

He's Here!

Just a quick announcement (more will be posted later): J has arrived! Weighing in at 7 lbs 15 oz and 21.5 inches, he made his impressive entrance on Thursday, March 3rd after 31 hours of labor and 3 hours of very painful, very strenuous pushing.

I apologize for the late, late posting, but I've been so incredibly busy and only just arrived back from the hospital yesterday.