Friday, July 2, 2010

Thank you!

I'm doing ok...Well, as good as can be considering the results. But as with all bad things, I realize that I can't dwell on this and I have to move on.

And I will move on, thanks to all of you and your kind words. When I started this blog, I had no idea what a huge part of my life it would become and all the wonderful, fabulous women I would meet. Sometimes I'm amazed how we even make it through each day. If I could, I'd go visit each and everyone of you and give you a huge, gigantic hug.

My next step will be to address my eating disorder (it feels so weird to write/say that). I've lived this way for so long, I don't know any other way to live. Every media outlet tells you, eat more veggies and fruit, eat less carbs and fat and exercise more. That's what I did. I just don't understand how they can say that and then tell me what I'm doing is wrong. I guess this is where the nutritionist and counselor come in to play.

I'll also be doing acupuncture and taking herbs. I'm meeting with a new TCM(traditional chinese medicine) doctor next week and I'm sure she'll have a lot to tell me.

And then lastly, I'll have to deal with my mother. She's coming back from Korea next week and I'll have an earful to deal with. Not only will I get to hear her opinion, but I'll also get to hear the opinion of all my Korean relatives (which she will tell me in detail) and all the anecdotal stories about so-and-so's daughter and how she got pregnant by obeying her Korean mom and eating tons of miyuk gook (seaweed soup). Patience is a virtue...


sienna said...

i think the herbs will really help, even more than the acupuncture. i started them after the last ivf cycle failed and had to stop a month ago when i started my bcp's. otw, i woulda kept going. they are suppose to work miracles, so we shall see!

i hope your mom is more supportive than know-it-all-y (which is how my mom is) when you see her next week. i know they care, but sometimes we just need time to ourselves to process and cry, so i hope she does that for you, in addition to making you eat loads of miyuk good. when my sister had her baby 4 months ago, my mom made her eat it for 3 meals a day for TWO MONTHS STRAIGHT. now my sister gags at even the mention of it. supposed to be a wonder food, go figure!!

thinking of you and sending big hugs :o)

the baby baker said...

Oh Sooz, I'm so very sorry about your BFN. It sounds like your plan for next steps is a great one. Patience is something we all get really good at after a while, right? I know you'll persevere. Good luck with your mom this week and with your upcoming appt with your new TCM dr. Huge hugs.

lowfatlady said...

I'm glad your doing ok considering things. This journey is hard and I think your doing really well. I wish I could go visit everyone and give everyone a hug as well. That would be great. I hope the visit with your mom goes well.

cgd said...

first of all I want to say how sorry I am for your BFN. That is so heartbreaking.
Second, I think it is great that you are getting the help you need. I am an ED therapist so please contact me if you have any questions or need assitance finding someone who can help you. Take care of yourself.
~here from LFCA~