Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Staying Positive

Thanks everyone for all your kind words! It's so nice to see new faces from ICLW.

As for the questions regarding my adult dreams...I wish I could give you lots of lurid interesting details, but I always, always forget my dreams within 3-5 minutes of waking. If I had my way, though, it may have included Brad Pitt circa Fight Club, shag carpet, some mirrors on the ceiling and cheesy 70s music (just kidding...well, everything except for Mr. Pitt).

Anyway, I'm feeling none too positive right now about my chances for a BFP. Still getting the occasional cramping, the lower back pain is still lingering, but the sore nipples and boobs have disappeared. This is the same series of symptoms that I've felt for all my negative IUIs. It's such a bummer and I can almost guarantee that AF is knocking on my door.

Oh, and I'm embarrassed to admit this, but I POAS yesterday night. It was only 7dp2t, but I've probably only POAS maybe 4-5 times during my entire TTC because my luteal phase is so short and AF arrives before I can POAS, so I decided to go for it. Obviously, BFN. I didn't really expect to see anything considering I had peed just 30 minutes ago and I was only 7dp2t. The only thing I did confirm was that the HCG is out of my system.

So, now I'm thinking about IVF #2. Do I stick with the my current Dr. P? Do I got with Dr. Zou.ves in Foster City (another very prominent fertility doc in the Bay Area)? Or do we take out the big guns and go for CCRM in Denver?

9 comments:

sienna said...

hey there - i'm not sure if dr z is the same dr z that i see most girls from sf go to, but it appears that they go to him after a few unsuccessful ivf's and then *voila*, a bfp. do you read eileen's blog? (it's called: we got hitched, bought 4 br house ...). anyways, she see's a dr z and raves about him. i have to think that "Z" names are not THAT prevalent? just an fyi :o)

sienna said...

btw - i hope you're not thinkinng that you're NOT preggers yet. 7dp2dt is WAY too early!!!

kemstarr said...

I'm gonna join you and stay positive, and I'm gonna hold out hope that this cycle worked. *sends up a prayer* You're considering CCRM if you have to do cycle #2? Well, I'm hoping you won't need to, but if you do, I look forward to hearing about which clinic and doctor you choose. CCRM sounds really fantastic, but I hope you won't need to make any changes or switches. :)

lowfatlady said...

I'm sorry you got a bfn, but your right it is early. I'm feeling the same way as you. not feeling positive and not having that many symptoms. *fingers crossed for us*

Pregnant Yuppy said...

Don't feel down about the BFN. Like you said, you know that the trigger is out of your system now. Good luck to you!

ICLW

arlnurse said...

please don't count yourself out just yet! I'm crossing all crossables that you will be pleasantly surprised!

Kate said...

Don't count yourself out - it's early. Now, you can say with certainty in future tests that they aren't skewed at all by any HCG left in your system. Fingers crossed for you!

~ICLW

christina said...

Still hoping for you!! Think positive! Wishing you all the best and hoping you get your bfp!

iclw

ventingvagina said...

9dpo is way too early. i'm remaining positive for you! thinking about you.